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devin, meagan, and erica know.. i told devin not to tell anyone but i know she probably told her mom.. this is gonna turn into a whole big fiasco abuot nothing..my mom is gonna find out AGAIN and FLIP THE FUKK OUT.. AGAIN! i hate thiss.. stupid liddle fukkers ..ughh whatever the tile guy is here with shit for my mom.. eww my bathroom looks so ugly.. well when the tiles go in it will.. but whatever.... i feel soo sick right now.. i need soemthing to eat.. but whatever.. North hills opens this weekend! so thats equals NO eating for the wrest of the week.. today.. i accomoplished that.. but whatever
when the eight grade was playing volleyball against the teachers allie deleted al lthe pictures of me out of stevens phone adn cara told him and he got really fukking pissed.. but whatever hes probably over it by now.. not that i care cause i have better things to worry about..
ughh they're gonna make me see a therapist.. i dont WANT a fukking therapist.. therapist SUCK! idkk whatever i seriously wish everyone just didn't know.. and that 2 years ago i never started this.. cause now that summers coming i have ALL these fukkign scars and its unfukking believable that i can't wear long sleeves anymore.. so im gonna have to stop anyway.. i need to start boxing again..
SPILL CANVAS LYRICS
"Bracelets"
I found fountains of imagery that are passing
Through me like a knife
From a group of friends that prefer to attack from the back
I'm trying to grasp concepts of your dimensions
While my universe is laced around your wrist
I am the bracelet you sport
I am everything that you have ever missed, and more
I was hoping I could tell you this with two feet on the ground
But I don't think I can talk, because I'm not very stable right now
In this dream that I had....
"You can't kill heroes"-that's what we said to them
"You can't kill us"
With our instruments broken before us
And the boys in the line they begin to count to five
And the trigger pulls
The bullets pepper the brick wall behind our heads
And the smoke, it fills the air
The captain yells to cease fire
And the squad begins to wait and stare
As the dust clears the air, and we're still standing
With smiles on both our faces
We spit their faulty ammo to the ground
And remind them once again
With smiles on both our faces
We spit their faulty ammo to the ground
And remind them once again that you can't kill heroes
I was hoping I could tell you this with two feet on the ground
But I don't think I can talk, because I'm not very stable right now
No, I'm not very stable right now
No, I'm not very stable right now
    
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